Trust

Each of my children upon their arrival has taken up a portion of my heart never again to be filled by anyone else. As each one was placed on me after their birth the feeling of unspeakable love overwhelmed my heart. When my first child was born I rocked her in the hospital and started to sing, I love You Lord and I lift my voice to worship You, O my soul rejoice. Take joy my King in what You hear, may it be a sweet sweet song in Your ear. I was exhausted but these words came to me as I held the precious bundle with which God had blessed me. With each child's arrival I would sit and rock and sing those word. As exhausted as I was I took time to worship my God and thank Him for the blessings in my life. At those moments all seemed right with my world. And I could not imagine hardship or trial, I just reveled in the beauty of the moment.




As the years pass and I watch my children grow I become more aware of how precious life is and the danger that surrounds us. How easy it would be to become consumed with this danger and uncertainty of life that I no longer enjoy my children, but instead work daily to ensure their safety. How foolish this would be. The Lord has entrusted them into my care, but my children belong to Him. I do not say this lightly, remember they own my heart and everything I do is for them, but I rest in the knowledge that the best care I can take of them is nothing compared to that of God's.





In order for me to face the uncertainties of each day I have to place my trust in my all knowing, ever present Father in heaven. I have seen pain and suffering in this life. I have lost loved ones and friends. I have sung songs at funerals for little ones to young to die. I have driven passed car accidents with children involved and my heart has gone out to those people involved. But my little world has not been struck by life changing tragedy. I deal with my share of injuries and issues, but each night I kiss each of my children goodnight and tuck them into bed.




I believe all that happens in our lives is to prepare for the challenges we will face. We accept the little things that help us grow and become stronger and more prepared for our purpose here or we can resent and question every thing that happens, in turn growing more bitter and unprepared for what lies ahead. We can question God every step of the way, argue with Him and grow apart from His will or we can place our trust in the one who loves us so much He gave His only Son to die that we might have a chance at eternal life with Him. I have lived my life with God as my foundation and have told God that I trust Him in all things and will not question WHY?, no matter the trial. This has not always been easy and God and I have had some pretty intense talks, but I know that to question the One on whom I stand would crumble my foundation. When tragedy strikes and I find myself lying broken on the floor I know the only One who can pick me up is my Lord. If I say I trust Him to take care of me in the good times I have to trust even more that He is my strength in time of pain and suffering.



And so I have placed each of my children back in His care. I have thanked Him for allowing me to be their mother and asked that He give me the necessary tools to instill in them the same trust in their own lives.



As parents we are to lead by example. Trust is something we can show our children each day. We should look for ways that God is providing for us in small ways so that we are strengthened and encouraged that he is in control. I do not have all the answers and do not pretend to know all about God. That is where my faith takes over. What I do know is that He loves me. He never promised that my life would be easy, just that he would walk with me. I rest in the knowledge that my future and the futures of my children are in His almighty hands.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5